Tidbits; I Do What I Want

do what i want

Let me start by saying I didn’t get to where I am today by flipping burgers at McDonalds, but I did apply once and thank god a friend of mine who answered the phone when they called, told them politely to “get lost”. I learned early on that getting and holding a job was going to be somewhat of a challenge and there were several reasons for that, not reasons of my own. If I wasn’t getting fired for not sleeping with the boss, I was getting canned for the delusions of alcoholic, drug addicted managers and by the insecure who were seriously intimidated by me – a threat to their position. Many times I was turned away at the door after they put a face to the resume, or for lame assed excuses that I didn’t fit the corporate image, for example at a telephone dating hookup company. WTF!? I learned I was always going to affect those folks that were beyond my control or positive influence, mostly based on ignorance. Basically for being me! I learned that as a person who was and is different from the status quo I had to think outside the box. I put myself through training as a hairstylist, fashion designer, photography, video editing, website design, management and self promotion. Along the way I also taught myself the ins and outs of fetish/BDSM play and practice both personally and professionally. An interest of my own that’s genuine . Let me stress I didn’t do this because someone else told me to, I did it cause I wanted to. Nor was I told how to be, how to live, or who to be, I did and do what I’ve always wanted to do. What I am saying and what has always frustrated me is there have always been individuals who feel the need to tell me what to do, how to be, how to live, and who to be. Based on my own experiences I think I’ve done pretty well on my own, don’t you think? There will always be those who think they know better and haters quick to make a stab, but let me remind you I’ve never let it get to me. I’ve done what I wanted to and in some cases what I’ve had to. I guess for those who think they know better it comes from a good place, but for me the actual fact is it’s intrusive, abusive, and downright rude. If I wanted your help on any of those aspects or your negativity I would’ve asked. What gets me is those who act in that manner and then get abusive with me when I reject their notions. I’m not sure what that’s all about but let me tell you I wouldn’t be educating folks on sexual health and healing if I listened to even one of those outrageous demands made on me. I don’t believe I would have the attitude I have now, one of confidence and determination, one that’s headstrong and resourceful. I don’t begrudge people for their treatment of me, I just move on and deal with it. Not to say to forgive and forget, as I do forgive but I’ll never forget. I am nurturing, and fiercely protective of those close to me, family, friends, confidants, even co-workers and collegues. However piss me off and you’ll know. But most of all DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO when its comes to work and my projects. I’ve done every job I ever had with pride and enthusiasm whether I was actually fond of that job or not. I’ll do what I want and for those who feel the need to tell me who to be, what to do, how to be, I urge you to take a step back and look at my history. A history that will show where I’ve been, and where I am going. A life I’ll be gladly sharing with you. As I said before I didn’t get to where I am flipping burgers. I am an activist and advocate, passionate about it all.